Ok, the panic is over, at least for the most part. I should now be discovering time. Time? What is that?
As I have said before, I work in a very stressful day job (night job, weekend job, you got the picture). As I work for a football team, it gets most stressful around July and August as we prepare for the season. For several months now, I have been able to stay above all the garbage.
I've talked about attitude before, but its really amazing to see what it can do. As long as I stay 'up', my many physical problems don't bother me. The heel spur I have in one foot caused me to be walking with a cane at one time. Now, I stay above it and I don't have pain from it. As I have been working the long hours at work, they don't bother me.
Now, I haven't been doing any massage, and I know that this is something I will need to do if I want my business to support me. At the same time, I haven't had time to do any massage, or much else for that matter. And it hasn't bothered me.
Somewhere I know that this is what is supposed to be happening right now, and that things will turn around soon. Wow, imagine that… me doing what I tell others to do.
I have this calming routine where I pull down this blue cloud around myself. For the last three weeks, I have only been able to get it down to my shoulders. I am getting it farther now. With our second home game (and that's all I need to worry about) next week, we should be over the biggest part, at least until there is a possibility that the team makes the playoffs.
At any rate, I am looking past next week when the majority of the stress drops. That's when I will make a major effort to take control of my life back. I will start calming and getting that cloud all the way down. I'll take control of my leg problems and stop them from bothering me. And I'll start doing massage again.
I was told I need to write out a plan, and I will do that. I have to put it down on paper in order to visualize it and see it happening. This will happen. And I'm not just saying that now. I will do it.
So time... I will have a little more time, and I will be filling that with massage and other healing things, not only for others, but for me too. And things will move forward.