It has been hard in the last couple of days. I have been a contact point for some people for information. Its been hard enough for me to deal with it, but know I am having to be the strong one as I listen to others cry as I talk with them on the phone.
The hardest thing I had to do (so far) has been to clear the rest of the fair dates from my calendar. I knew I was going to have to do it eventually, or at least cancel the next one. But I have been waiting until the very last minute, waiting until I had no other choice.
Annie called me to let me know the details for the funeral home and such. I grabbed the first piece of paper I could find, and wrote down the information. Later I looked at what I had written it on, and it was a flyer advertising the psychic fairs. Ouch.
Her family leaves tomorrow. They are taking her back to Maine for burial. The visitations will be on Tuesday with the funeral Wednesday. Her daughter will come back here next Sunday (she lives here).
There will be a memorial service at the Cosmic Church of Truth on March 9th. I'm planning to go, but am worried if I'll be able to get through it. At 2:00 that same day, we are gathering her students for one more 'class'. Barb had thought of doing this in St. Augustine, and I thought it would be a good idea to do here. I brought it up to Annie, and it got scheduled.
Friday, I had this sudden thought (and you know how those scare me). Usually when I get these it is because I'm being directed to do something. I thought that at a last class, we could have a group channel session, and not the type we are used to having. I was seen linking everyone together and letting them get their own information. Sandra mentioned a vortex of energy, and that sounded right. I think my thought is that we can use the energy of the group to get everyone to channel.
At any rate, once I had the thought, I had another. And that one was me saying that I don't know how to do this. An instant later, I knew I did. This is how I get things. I just need to go with the (energy) flow.
In passing the news to Carolyn, she was pretty shocked. Carolyn has been growing in psychic ability for a long time. About a month ago, she called Kay (having met her at a fair a few years ago) and talked to her for a while. Carolyn had been having the feeling that someone was going to die. Kay told her that indeed her abilities were growing, but not to hang onto these thoughts. To look ahead, we can not hold onto too many things or we get bogged down. Kay basically told Carolyn to just go on feeling, and accept things as they come. Everything would be ok. Little did Carolyn know that it would be that person that she called for advice that would be the one she was getting the messages about.
Sherry told me that out of bad things happening, good things occur. Although this was not a bad thing for Kay, it feels as such to the rest of us. I think she feels that without instruction (at least from this side), we may start to grow quicker, becoming better at what we do, and learning new things. I think she is right.
I sent out yesterday's entry to a lot of people in e-mail, just to let them know what happened, and a little about Kay that they may not have known. There have been some nice responses. Here are a few...
- I'll keep her in my prayers.
- That was lovely. You really are a wonderful writer Brian. I hope that when I pass on someone will write something as lovely and special and hope-filled as that. Thank you for sharing.
- I sent my prayers along with the rest of the people that you notified, although without much hope over the outcome because of my own sight (gifts are not always easy to deal with).
- I did not know Kay personally, but I have always felt that the true measure of a person is how people feel about them and remember them. You have written a heartfelt letter that is a major tribute to her life and a wonderful insight into the person that you intrinsically are.
- My heart and prayers goes out to you, her friends and family that are left behind. I know that she is still with you; guiding you and the others that she treasured.
- I am very sorry for your loss, however I am happy that she is no longer in pain.
- I was sorry to hear of your friend's passing. Friends, esp. teachers are few and far between.
- In my observations, I see many that are leaving this plane right now to go on to a higher calling. One that is much needed for those that are dealing with the world in it's present state and in the times to come.
- I send my love & Light!! She is in a better place now, one we will all reunite in one day !!
- Janis and Rose and I went to the beach and did a release and memorial gathering for Kaimora. We shared photographs and stories and sadness and joy at having known her and having become part of the networks we are a part of because of her. Thank you for your words and know that she is "turning up" over here as well. Sunday night I took a sunset walk on St. Petersburg Beach and a loon feather washed up on a wave from the Gulf of Mexico at my feet. Loons winter here but they are silent. Their joyful calls fill every evening of my months in Maine with Kaimora and if she were to send me a gift, and a reminder of her, here 1900 miles south of the home of the loons, it would be a loon feather and I thanked her for it and have it on my shelf next to a picture of her and a flame burning in remembrance.
- Now that our teacher is on the other side, let us all go out and teach what she taught us.
- What a beautiful story of your very dear friend. My heart and prayers go with you and may her energy and love linger in your forever.
- You speak for all of us who loved Kai and learned so much from and through her.
I met Kai in 1984, when she lived in Jacksonville. I was an overnight guest at her home, and she became my immediate friend, and teacher. I lived in NY then, and quickly invited her to teach and read for in community. She obliged and I spent many years enjoying her company, caring for her needs while she was with me, and watching myself and my community grow psychically and spiritually.
In the past few years I was able to introduce her to Gulfport, FL, where I live now. However, she did not want to travel so much any more. She loved being in St. Augustine, and encouraged everyone from Gulfport to visit her there. When I last saw her at the Gulfport Women's Festival, and I was able to tell her that I was teaching Reiki, she was the most pleased that I have ever seen her. She was very proud of herself and me. I am ever grateful that I walked her path.
I don't know if you and I have met, but as kindred spirits, I wanted to tell you a little about my friendship with Kai, and thank you for sharing what you know. Last evening Kathy, Rose and I met at the beach and spent a couple of hours letting go of Kai. We found that although we held the ritual and paid her the honor, that she is not gone from us. We will be meeting on Monday nights to hone our skills in channeling, and all else she taught us.
So, for all the years Kai encouraged me to create a healing center, I think it is about to happen.
Take care all. May love and light be with you.