May 11, 2004

Tonight, I had a client that has a lot of problems, and he's come to me for help. Something has drawn him to me. As I have said over the years, there are no accidents. Now, I only hope to be able to give him the help he needs.

I have done massage and Reiki on him so far, but the massage only helped his physical needs. The Reiki helped on other levels. We're trying to come up with a treatment plan that will help him find the healing he needs. I can easily see some things that will help. As much of the problems are emotional, he needs to learn to deal with his surroundings.

He told me that he has been dealing with loss, depression, and low self esteem. Hmm, for a moment there, I thought he might have been talking about me. I do understand what he is going through, and I know some things that will help. There are several meditation techniques that he needs to start working with. Receiving Reiki will also help as it works on the physical, emotional, and spiritual levels.

I feel that learning meditation, and using it to deal with things, find a place of calm, and making changes in himself will be a big factor. So, I have a couple things to start with. I only hope that new things come to me as he needs them.

Of course, this is always the point where I have doubts in myself. Here is a person that is putting his trust and faith in me to do what is necessary to help him heal. It's a big responsibility, one that I hope that I'm up to. With the stress of starting the business, and concern about making enough from it to survive, I know that I'm not as open as I'd like to be. I have managed to be open enough to get direction while doing bodywork, so I'm not completely closed. But I know I need to open much more.

We scheduled his next session, and I asked him whether it should be Reiki or meditation. Before he could answer, I heard 'Reiki' shouted in my ear. Maybe I'm not as unreachable from my guides as I thought I was.