May 24, 2005

I have a friend in from out of town for a couple of days. Actually, she is from out of the country. She has seen me do a number of things long distance. Today she asked me to tell her what her emotions were.

I centered and made a link between her and me. Then I sampled her emotions. (This is always the hard part. When I do this, I need to let my emotions go, and drop all expectations. The hard part is to not feel my emotions. Once I get past that, dropping all expectations is very difficult. Why so, you might ask. Well, let’s say that I know someone is going through a rough time, it is easy to expect them to be sad. In this case, I put my expectations in the mix and I will feel that this person is sad. I actually overlay what I expect to feel over top of the actual emotions. Then I feel what I expect. It is a very difficult line to walk.)

As I felt her emotions, I felt like I was floating on a cloud. There wasn’t any great fear or anger, nor was there any great happiness. I felt she was tranquil, and at peace. I had actually expected to come up with some specific emotion to tell her I felt, but did not. I felt that I probably had missed, and that I had not actually gotten to feel her emotions. 

When I told her what I felt, she looked at me and said “You’re good.” This surprised me. She told me that she had imagined herself in a favorite place where she feels at peace and meditative. Wow. Even though I had not felt I had gotten anything, I had gotten it exactly. 

So much for self doubt. I know, trust my instincts. If that’s what I’m feeling, it is what it is. Cool.