Today was our last day of Esalen class. We started by dancing.
One of the warm up things we did was to put on music, feel it and dance. I have a huge problem with letting go. I just could not get into it. I moved a lot, enjoyed some of it, but never did get the release of it that our teacher was looking at us getting.
Later, I worked on Doc. He was surprised how good what I was doing felt. He mentioned that I use my forearms a lot. This is true as I took a lot from the Lomi Lomi. I just let myself move, and be intuitive. Once in a while, I went to a ‘canned’ move which I took from Lomi or some other discipline. But most of it was pure intuitiveness. Doc liked it. I liked it.
I want to o more like this. The total intuitive massage is just wonderful to do.