The client I worked on yesterday walked in this morning, and she was not doing well. She told me that yesterday was magical, but the magic had gone away.
She told me that while I was working in her, she could feel the Christ energies (her term), and that they felt wonderful, but overwhelming. She felt the magic for most of the day. But when she woke up this morning, all the problems she has been having were there, and she could not feel the magic anymore. All she felt was the ager and hate and fear that she lived with constantly.
We talked for a long while. Everything I told her, she simply refused. I talked about letting go of her anger so she could deal with the problems, but she could not. She told me that she has been releasing stuff, but she is still stuck in the same place. She wants things to happen, and she wants them to happen now. (I want patience, and I want it now.) The problem is that things don’t happen immediately. They take time. It takes a while for the high vibration of thoughts and desires to slow down to reach us at this level.
I finally led her into the treatment room and took her through a meditation. With each step, she fought me. I then cleaned her chakras (again with massive energy). I finally did some Reiki, and that calmed her down. It did not take away the nagging, but it did calm her down.
I wasn’t real happy that she still felt bad when she left, but she has to be the one to accept what she is told. She is the one that needs to understand that she needs to release things, and truly do it.
About 20 minutes after she left, she called me. Something had changed and she wanted me to know. She realized that she was not releasing things.
We don’t let go of things easily. If someone comes up and introduces himself, he might say, “HI. I’m John. I have epilepsy.” This way he tells us who he is and that he has a problem. But more likely, he would say, “Hi. I’m John. I’m an epileptic.” Although it seems small, there is a huge change. In the second one, this person has defined himself by his illness. When we define ourselves by our problems, they are harder to let go of, to release them.
And this is not true just for illnesses. This is true of all things going on with us. We are angry over something, and that anger consumes us. We make it a part of us. The same is true for hate, love, and anything else going on in our lives. When we finally do get around to releasing this (if we can), we feel like we are releasing a part of us. (This is what my client told me, that she felt like she had to release part of what she was.)
We are shaped by everything that has happened in our lives. The hard part is leaving those experiences behind and seeing them only as something that happened. We don’t have to keep dragging them around with us. We don’t need to make them a part of us. What we experienced changed us, but we don’t need to keep the experience as part of us. That needs to be let go along with the emotion attached with it. We have to define ourselves by ourselves, not by our hate, and fear, and anger. Those are not part of us and we have to recognize that and let it go.
It is not easy, especially if it is something that has been with us for a long time. But it needs to be done to move forward. How many times have I heard that you need to leave the past behind to walk into the future? Enough I guess. But it is true.